Days from now I will be ending the chapter of this blog plus another year will be added to my age. For three weeks I have been bothered by questions, like what is happening to me and what is going on to my life. I’m not consistent in attending mass. Some of the promises that I have made was broken. I have lay out a plan and yet I’m not able to follow some of it. Before I thought everything was perfectly planned and it would be easy for me to achieve my goals, yet its not. There are lots of obstacles to pass through, test to prove my worth and things that shows me my limitation and boundaries… preventing me from achieving my goals.

These things come to my realization when I did not go out with my friends for that day and got home doing nothing but to sleep. When I woke up I feel so empty. Something is not there. Something is missing. I feel so hollow. so empty… Then I remember the advices that was given to me, "the only thing that is consistent in this world is change", "you must be professional in the office, be friendly not friendship for you or your friends will not be on the same company forever. Eventually either you or your friend will leave the company." and "Everything in the office is temporary. You must not invest your everything to it, especially your feelings". Those advices in such a  way is true. But I’m not that kind of person, my friends motivates me it is to them where I get my strength to stay… but they say it will be the cause of my failure… damn! I’m sorry but I will stay the same, I will just enjoy every moments while I’m still with them… while they are still there.

Yet now the feeling of being hollow still their… emptiness. I was thinking of looking back into my past and know what is missing probably it will help me.